Does this mean your will did not have anything to do with the outcome? Playing the hell card again. As if you exactly know what the meaning of the Lake of Fire is. You don't. Neither do I. But... Matt 5:21-26 26 - Truly, I say to you, you will never get out until you have paid the last penny. Meaning 1. Hell | LOF aren't necessarily eternal. 2. The greek word for eternal is age-lasting. (link) So I think your less optimistic view needs some polishing. But by now you have been ducking the question 2 times but I am going to make my point anyway You have said in the past your faith was sincere and I have no reason to question that. One of the dominant reasons for leaving the faith was the treatment you have gotten from other Christians. That I had in mind when I asked you how you would respond when you stand before God's throne and He asks you: - Why did you leave me? I imagined in your defence you could list the bad things people did to you but then God could answer - Sorry to hear that my son, that's bad indeed, but tell me HL, what did I do to you? That would going nowhere don't you agree?